“You think youve had just about finished feeling pain. Then someone just puts you in just twice as much pain you just got out of. I was hurting and thought I was going to be okay for I couple of days then someone in my family just stabs me in the back and Im in so much pain that I cry till I pass out for the night. Then when I wake up I start to hear things. That brings bad memories and curl I in to ball and cry more. I just want to cut myself so bad, but I cant bring myself to cut my wrists because I promised not to. The pain just keeps coming and I dont know what to do. Im in so much pain I feel like I cant even breath. I tried that whole put a positive look on it and it just made me hurt even more. I just want to die and make the pain go away forever.”