““Can't remember what true happiness was.......or is. Do people really see you as you see yourself? If people really do see you as you see yourself I'm really suprised I'm still alive. Wishfull thinking I guess, that somebody else would kill me since I don't have the guts to do it myself. Nothing like getting up and heaping more self hate on myself. Makes me wonder what the rest of the day holds....... Sick and tired of being sick and tired””
