“Im gone, Ive been dead a long, long time. I say Im not scared of dying and I realise its because I know Im already dead so what difference does it make? Im not alive, Im barely existing, Im a shell of someone I used to be, someone that I used to know¦that person has now long gone, shes moved on and Im the mess thats left. Dont get too close to me because I will hurt you, I will disappoint you and I will slowly destroy you like Im slowly destroying myself. Im walking down the path of destruction and it has never looked so inviting and yet, I feel so calm and prepared..Its as though Ive fully accepted that my life will be nothing more than this..its just an existence, a life thats barely hanging on for the sake of other people. So do what you want to me because you cant hurt me more than Im currently hurting myself. Go ahead, do what you want. The girl you once knew is no more, shes dead to the world gonegonegone. All that is left is a shadow, a hollow being. Welcome to my living hell and dont say that I didnt warn you.”
