“To be honest.. it doesnt really hurt my heart like I thought it would. Im achieving things I never thought I could. and it feels as alright as it should. I was in the vulnerable place while you were going through an unfamiliar phase. In a sense we were a handful of lost children trying to find our way. Pain is what brought us together so once it stopped, and once things we're okay we were separated only until we got hurt again. An unhealthy habit to have but one that means so much to me (in a sense I mean you) and it's a habit I can't lose. The only time when I see your face, the only times when I hear your name. I don't want to be hurt, but I don't want to forget the comfort of my head buried in your shirt. Like a drug addiction I abuse. Like a cigarette I could use, but don't have to. I don't need you but I want you. So I think I'll keep dwelling on the pain, in hopes you will you stay.”
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