“It wasn't about flirting with death, like Mom. It was about wanting to live all the way to the seams of life.” — Leah Raeder Death Copy Share Image
“This is mine, I thought as he fucked me. This body, this act, this man, all mine.” — Leah Raeder Fucked Copy Share Image
“You should love something while you have it, love it fully and without reservation, even if you know you’ll lose it someday.” — Leah Raeder Lose Copy Share Image
“I can't hold on to you. You're like a shooting star. Just a trail of fire in my hands.” — Leah Raeder Hold Copy Share Image
“Usually the thought process for a seventeen-year-old boy went girl touching me > omg > boner.” — Leah Raeder Boner Copy Share Image
“Thanks, Dad, for leaving a huge void in my life that Freud says has to be filled with dick.” — Leah Raeder Freud Copy Share Image
“But this is who you are. You’re a liar, and a thief, and a junkie. I don’t hate you, Mom. I’m disappointed… — Leah Raeder Liar Copy Share Image
“This is ridiculous," I said, trying to laugh it off. "I never cry at movies." "Because you've never been in love," he… — Leah Raeder Love Copy Share Image
“That was what we'd finally been forced to confront: if our relationship was based on forbiddenness, what would happen when it was… — Leah Raeder Forbidden Copy Share Image
“I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed and sung me moonstruck, kissed me quite insane. And before you think that's cheesy,that's… — Leah Raeder Dreamed Copy Share Image
“...The thought of how much happiness lay scattered across the universe, unrealized, in fragments, waiting for the right twist of fate to… — Leah Raeder Across the universe Copy Share Image
“His hand circled the back of my neck. "I need you tonight." Has there ever been a more effective line in the… — Leah Raeder History Copy Share Image
“What the hell am I? I thought. Too old to be a real teenager, too young to drink. Old enough to die… — Leah Raeder Old enough Copy Share Image
“I love you, I thought. If I was the only person truly alive that night, it was because of you. You made… — Leah Raeder Love Copy Share Image
“I can’t be your manic pixie dream girl. I can’t be the girl who teaches you how to open your heart and… — Leah Raeder Dream girl Copy Share Image
“Wesley had called it self-destructive. Evan understood. It wasn't about flirting with death, like Mom. It was about wanting to live all… — Leah Raeder Death Copy Share Image
“I think that lesson was the most important: that none of us actually grow up. We get bigger, and older, but put… — Leah Raeder Green grass Copy Share Image
“Our gazes struck like flint and steel. And I realized that gunsmoke smell wasn’t ozone. It was us. We burned.” — Leah Raeder Burned Copy Share Image
“Nobody knows how to be a grown-up. We're all just pretending for each other.” — Leah Raeder Grown Copy Share Image
“Grow up. This is real. The world is ugly and nasty and fucked up, and so are we.” — Leah Raeder Fucked Copy Share Image
Part of falling in love with someone is actually falling in love with yourself. — Leah Raeder Fall Copy Share Image
“Don’t come here to fuck with my head and play games. You don’t test someone’s love by leaving them.” — Leah Raeder Leaving Copy Share Image
“Some girls had mothers who never called them beautiful but swore their love up and down. It's all the same, really. All… — Leah Raeder Lies Copy Share Image
“People know their feelings much sooner than they consciously accept them.” — Leah Raeder People Know Copy Share Image
“Yeah, I hook up with older guys. And then I leave them, before they can leave me.” — Leah Raeder Guys Copy Share Image
“We’re the sun and moon, Blythe.” “What does that mean?” “I turn invisible when you’re out.” — Leah Raeder Invisible Copy Share Image
“His eyes moved over me, but hovered mostly on my face. That was almost worse. Who am I without this? I thought.… — Leah Raeder Confidence Copy Share Image
“I stood in the rain, watching his car go. A string tied to it looped around my heart and pulled tighter and… — Leah Raeder Rain Copy Share Image
“Everything was flame shades of tangerine and pomegranate, ripeness on the brink of decay, and when the wind rippled the leaves they… — Leah Raeder Flame Copy Share Image
“Are you scared?” he said into my hair. “Yeah.” “What scares you?” I kept my eyes on the ceiling. “That this is… — Leah Raeder Scared Copy Share Image
“He embraced me, and said into my ear, 'I'm going to fuck the shit out of you.' I lost my breath. It… — Leah Raeder Embraced Copy Share Image
“Maybe I fell in love with the idea of love, but I’m a teenage girl. This morning I fell in love with… — Leah Raeder Love Copy Share Image
“We looked at each other with that resentment you feel when you want something so much it’s causing you pain, so much… — Leah Raeder Anger Copy Share Image
“The brain is an incredible multitasker. At the same time that it's piercing itself with superheated needles of anguish, it's ruthlessly making… — Leah Raeder Brain Copy Share Image
“What is this feeling? I wondered. What is this hunger that grows worse the more I feed it? They’d come up with… — Leah Raeder Food Copy Share Image
“There's something so terrible about wanting something you've already had. You know exactly what you're missing. Your body knows precisely how to… — Leah Raeder Wanting Copy Share Image
“Here’s a history of the world: Girl meets boy. Girl fucks boy. Girl gets scared and skips out on boy. Boy builds… — Leah Raeder Girl Copy Share Image
“Just that. A pleasant daze. My body was full of sunlight. No blood, just liquid blue sky.” — Leah Raeder Blue sky Copy Share Image
“If you’re trying to avoid loss, there’s no point in taking another breath, or letting your heart beat one more time. It… — Leah Raeder Heart beat Copy Share Image
