“My unhappiness precluded all else; unhappiness is a kind of narcissism, in which nothing that does not resonate with your unhappiness can… — Caroline Kettlewell Depression Copy Share Image
“Why can't I remember our family Christmas, or a warm spring day, or anything that might have been pleasant? It is as… — Caroline Kettlewell Christmas Copy Share Image
“I needed cutting now the way a diabetic needs insulin. It was a bulwark, steady and unyielding, I could throw up against… — Caroline Kettlewell Cutting Copy Share Image
“You might imagine that a person would resort to self-mutilation only under extremes of duress, but once I'd crossed that line the… — Caroline Kettlewell Coping-mechanism Copy Share Image
“For some reason, I believed that I had above all else an obligation to protect everyone-- my teachers, my family-- from the… — Caroline Kettlewell Cutting Copy Share Image
“The chaos in my head spun itself into a silk of silence. I had distilled myself to the immediacy of hand, blade,… — Caroline Kettlewell Silence Copy Share Image
“It didn’t occur to me that there was something decidedly odd in finding a box of razor blades aesthetically appealing. I wonder… — Caroline Kettlewell Copy Share Image
“How gratifying it is to amuse. How easy it gets to toss off a witticism to ease any awkwardness, to sidestep any… — Caroline Kettlewell Amuse Copy Share Image
“Once you take to the habit of deception, every new lie comes that much easier. Though to me it wasn't so much… — Caroline Kettlewell Deception Copy Share Image
Anorexia isn't about being fat, it's about having fat. — Caroline Kettlewell Anorexia Copy Share Image
“The fear of an unknown never resolves, because the unknown expands infinitely outward, leaving you to cling pitifully to any small shelter… — Caroline Kettlewell Fear Copy Share Image
“That's when I wanted to cut. I cut to quiet the cacophony. I cut to end this abstracted agony, to reel my… — Caroline Kettlewell Cut Copy Share Image
“Somehow however just knowing that I could fully expect unhappiness to return – if not predictably then nevertheless reliably – was strangely… — Caroline Kettlewell Depression Copy Share Image
“Well how many troubles should equal a legitimate reason for self-mutilation? Ten? Twenty? One hundred? And how monumental must these troubles be?… — Caroline Kettlewell Cutting yourself Copy Share Image
