“Im not asking you to fall in love with me I just want what we had back, I want our friendship losing the one I love hurt. but losing a friend hurt infinitaly more. if your reading this, I understand that you dont have the same feelings and I'm not angry at you because of it I'm angry at myself because I hurt you even though I promised I would never do that to you and I know I didnt do it on purpose, I wonder if you think I did.. and I want to try and tell you one last time that I really didnt mean to push you away and I would do anything for us to be close again, you mean so much to me and now ur gone. I realise how much I took you for granted and I wish I could've told you when you were still here just how much you meant to me.. you impacted my life.. more than I can begin to explain I'm not sure how to tell you this, so that you will believe me but everything I say is true and even though we havent talked in awhile, your still my best friend and nothing will ever change that to be honest I think I'm trying to say, I miss you”
