“I understand you denying and punishing yourself. You are used to being told what to think and feel. But in denying and punishing yourself you have destroyed me. To share the level of intimacy that we did and for you to walk away as you have with such callousness and disregard is heart wrenching. To go from telling me and showing me that you loved and cared for me so deeply that you were ready to have a baby with me, only to shut me out entirely just to regain acceptance from the one person who ruined all of this? You never loved me, I dont know what it was, but it wasn't love. The cruelest thing is that you let me fall in love with you. How do I stop? Am I supposed to hate you now? I can't. If you only knew what you've done to me. I pray for death, there is nothing left for me. I curse the night, I curse the morning. I'm glad you have that one I used to call my sister and I'm glad she has you, you can both tell each other how what you've done to me doesn't matter.”
