“I think I'm at the point where I liked you for so long, it's just an automatic response for me. I don't know if I really still do, but whenever someone says your name, my heart races, but I have a feeling that's just the way it's going to be for a while. I know I need to move on and I will but it'll take time I'm not strong enough to suddenly move away from one amazing person that's been there forever.”