““I was suddenly afraid she was going to climb the rail and leap into the sea. But maybe she wasn't. Maybe it was a delusion, my delusion. Maybe it was the fever coming on. Maybe what I really experienced on the steamer was the frightening, awe-inspiring sense we had been cut loose, were beyond the sight of land, lost. After all, what sort of woman, clutching the hand of her little boy, would actually consider climbing a ship's rail and leaping out into the Irish Sea? What sort of woman would consider stepping off a London bus into crowds, into oblivion? Only a woman penniless in wartime. Only a woman traveling into exile. Only a woman who suspects, from redness around his eyes and a croak in his voice, that her son has a life-threatening bout of scarlet fever coming on. Only a woman whose husband is a prisoner, whose father is a tyrant. Only a woman exhausted by life.””
