““If it had been a heart attack, the newspaper might have used the word massive , as if a mountain range had opened inside her, but instead it used the word suddenly , a light coming on in an empty room. The telephone fell from my shoulder, a black parrot repeating something happened, something awful a sunday, dusky. If it had been terminal , we could have cradled her as she grew smaller, wiped her mouth, said good-bye. But it was sudden , how overnight we could be orphaned & the world became a bell we'd crawl inside & the ringing all we'd eat.””
![“[...] Pacing from room to room and in each window a different version of a framed woman unable to rest, set against a sky full of beating wings and abandoned directions. Her five chambered heart filling with the panic of birds, asking: What? What if not this?” quote by Olena Kalytiak Davis](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/img-quotes/34b/olena-kalytiak-davis-34842_anxiety_pacing-from-room-to-room-and-in-each-win_133662.jpg)
