“Why do I feel that I am pushing everyone away? am I really doing that? why do I feel that I'm the cause of everyones hurt and depression? do I hurt and depress you? why do I feel that if I just up and left everyone would be happy? would that make you happy. why do I feel like I am the reason why my best friend goes through the shit she does? am I the reason. I dont understand why the people I talk to ever stayed by my side when I hurt them treating them like shit and pushed them all away. I dont understand why I am even still here, why can;t I just leave why?”
