“Im already aware of how pathetic I am. Im aware of the fact that even if someone did care, there is nothing they could do. The answers are within myself and they're always just out of reach. All I can do is complain because I hold it in all the time. I say my opinion or the truth and I cause a fight. I keep my mouth shut and get used as a doormat. Lose-lose. Im so unhappy with myself. My looks my life the people in my life the envy and stupid impulsive decisions. I want to die. I want to just sleep forever. I've been in hell for too long I just want my heaven.”
