“I cant go another day pretending to be something I'm not. Im not always happy actually I'm ususlly not happy at all I just act like I am. I put a fake smile on everyday because I dont want people to see the pain. I close up, I push people away. If you get close to me you better either promise you wont leave no matter what, or just dont bother trying. I push people away before they have the erge to leave me. I get hurt all of the time. I have so many problems I nedd help. The only thing I can think of to solve these temprary situations, is choose a perminate solution.”