Pain Told Quote by Lauren Hammond
““They told me the drugs would take away the pain. They told me the drugs would help me sleep. They are wrong. The pain of losing Damien hasn't gone away. And I hardly ever sleep. There's a part of me that wishes I could close my eyes and shut out the world, but I can't. I can't because I know behind my eyelids, I'll see him. He'll be there looking so fresh and alive. His skin will be vibrant with color, his blue blue eyes sparkling. He'll flash me his radiant smile and for a few minutes, I'll actually believe that he didn't die. I'll believe it and then I wake up to discover that my mind is torturing me with what could have been and I lose control of my emotions. I scream. Sob. Hug my knees to my chest. Rock back and forth. Tug at my hair. I pace the length of my shoebox room and throw myself into the padded white walls. I pray for someone or something to come along and take the pain away. I pray for someone or something to erase my memory so that I'll never have to think of Damien again. And so that I'll never have to live with the painful reminder that I am the reason he died. Damien died for me. And for love. And I'm not quite sure what else. Maybe to prove a point.””
About This Quote
Grief can overwhelm and make medication feel insufficient, leading to intense emotional turmoil and yearning for escape.
In simple terms: Grief feels endless and drugs don’t erase the pain.
Key Takeaway
Seek support beyond medication to process loss.
Themes
grief
pain
loneliness
memory
guilt
Mood
despair
anguish
hopeful
Type
personal
reflective
emotional
When to use this quote
- nighttime insomnia
- crying episodes
- self‑soothing rituals
- prayer for relief
Key Concepts
bereavement
trauma
psychological distress
Questions to Reflect On
- How can I honor Damien’s memory without being consumed by grief?
- What coping strategies can reduce the urge to self‑harm?
A Different Perspective
Medication may not address underlying emotional wounds; professional help may be needed.
