“Her eyes screamed the saddest apology the world has ever heardoh the scars on her wrist? dont worry, she says their just a reminder of how many times you broke her heart Sometimes I just feel like Running away just to see who would follow just to see who really cares 0r if anyone cares at all I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show, and I thought that bein strong meant never losing your self control. but tonight I'm just enough to let go of my pain, to hell with my pride. let it fall like rain from my eyes, tonight I wanna cry. Force a smile, blink away the tears Im ((supposed to)) be strong ((supposed to)) have no fears but* I'm finding it hard not to frown im such a [ s t r o N g ] person ...why am I breaking down¦ SHe's the kind of girl who has the biggest smile on her face even when shes balling her eyes out Fake friends Broken Hearts to mend Lying cheating stealing Pain thats never healing Scars from sad nights Black eyes from fist fights Never ending stress Trying for the best Too many tears for someone to save me Being a teenager is way too crazy THey say that the teenage years are the best of your life.. but I disagree.. I just want to be a kid again I'm going to smile.. and make u think I'm happy.. im going to laugh.. so u dont see me cry.. and even if it kills me.. im going to smile. I don't know what to do anymore, nothing feels the same, I never see a smile in the mirror, I only see pain, pain beneath my soul, so deep inside of me there is no escaping it, no coming back to a normal state of mind, there's nothing I can do anymore. im mad at myself for crying i dont even remember the reason but the tears keep flowing and they just wont stop i'm supposed to be strong but everythings so wrong Oh how I wish I could see tears seep through your eyes, but even that wouldn't be enough to cover up the lies you kept from me. This is where I say I've had enough and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now. A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises and I don't believe that I'm getting any better. It's what ppl do without thinking that cause the quick tears.. Eventually the tears will be forgotten, ..But the hurt will stay in the heart forever.. It's getting colder now And the darkness consumes me Depression is slowly creeping up Maybe one day you'll actually care about me Smile. It's easier than explaining why you're sad *..ive learned that stuff happens, people change, and it doesnt mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories, letting go doesnt mean giving up, its just accepting the fact that some things werent meant to be..* I want to crawl into my dream world and stay there, so that the pain yesterday brought wont carry on to tomorrow. Sometimes I find myself faking a smile just to get through the day. I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get through anything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering I thought somebody would notice, I thought somebody would say something¦ I could pretend that Im not dying inside, but just so you know... I am. The memory dies as the sun leaves the skies and I'm alone again. I wish it was raining, cause I hate every beautiful day Even if its a lie, say itll be alright, and I will believe... As we grow older, it gets harder to believe. Its not that we dont want to but too much has happened and we cant. Dont fall into the trap of pretending everything is okay when you know its not. There comes a point in your life when you realize that nothing will ever be the same, and you realize that from now on time will be divided into two parts- before this and after this. Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you're hurt. Id like to think Ill be happy again, but I really need to stop and cry right now. Sometimes, I wish I could scream at you, and just to show you what you do to me. You know, I dont think Ill ever be happy. Wherever I am, Ill wish Im somewhere else. Whatever I have, Ill want something different. I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies. I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes Smile and make you think Im happy I talk and make you think I love me I laugh, so you dont see me cry I look at you and hide the pain inside I feel myself dying but you see me survive I didnt wanna be that girl that cries herself to sleep¦ Smile and act like nothings wrong Its called putting s*it aside and being strong Im not always happy but I can fake it Cant stand all this”
