“One of my teachers told me I was a nihilist. He meant it as an insult but i took it as a… — Susanna Kaysen Nihilist Copy Share Image
“Did the hospital specialize in poets and singers, or was it that poets and singers specialized in madness?” — Susanna Kaysen Madness Copy Share Image
It was a spring day, the sort that gives people hope: all soft winds and delicate smells of warm earth. Suicide weather. — Susanna Kaysen Delicate Copy Share Image
“The shimmering, ever-shifting borderline, like all boundaries beckons and asks to be crossed.” — Susanna Kaysen Borderline Copy Share Image
“imagined my character as a plate or shirt that had been manufactured incorrectly and was therefore useless.” — Susanna Kaysen Imagined Character Copy Share Image
Tell me that you don’t take that blade and drag it across your skin and pray for the courage to press down. — Susanna Kaysen Blade Copy Share Image
“In a strange way we were free. We’d reached the end of the line. We had nothing more to lose.” — Susanna Kaysen Free Copy Share Image
When you’re sad you need to hear your sorrow structured into sound. — Susanna Kaysen Grief Copy Share Image
Insanity comes in two basic varieties: slow and fast. I'm not talking about onset or duration. I mean the quality of the… — Susanna Kaysen Day to day Copy Share Image
“I can honestly say that my misery had been transformed into common unhappiness, so by Freud's definition I have achieved mental health.” — Susanna Kaysen Borderline-personality-disorder Copy Share Image
I noticed that some of my deadness was being replaced by an intense feeling about the Greek stories and the Bible stories.… — Susanna Kaysen Bible Copy Share Image
Actually, it was only part of myself I wanted to kill: the part that wanted to kill herself, that dragged me into… — Susanna Kaysen Debate Copy Share Image
Our hospital was famous and housed many great poets and singers. Did the hospital specialize in poets and singers or was it… — Susanna Kaysen Great poet Copy Share Image
“Scar tissue has no character. It's not like skin. It doesn't show age or illness or pallor or tan. IT has no… — Susanna Kaysen Scar Copy Share Image
Scar tissue has no character. It's not like skin. It doesn't show age or illness or pallor or tan. It has no… — Susanna Kaysen Age Copy Share Image
We say that Columbus discovered America and Newton discovered gravity, as though America and gravity weren't there until Columbus and Newton got… — Susanna Kaysen America Copy Share Image
“Nothing," I said. "It's quiet. It's like― I don't know. It's like falling off a cliff." I laughed. "I guess my life… — Susanna Kaysen Life Copy Share Image
By the time we hit the streets they were silent and closed in on us, and they had assumed the Nonchalant Look,… — Susanna Kaysen Cream Copy Share Image
For many of us, the hospital was as much a refuge as it was a prison. Though we were cut off from… — Susanna Kaysen Crazy Copy Share Image
“Back then I didn't know that I -- or anyone-- could make a life out of boyfriends and literature. As far as… — Susanna Kaysen Anger Copy Share Image
Don’t ask me those questions! Don’t ask me what life means or how we know reality or why we have to suffer… — Susanna Kaysen Angel Copy Share Image
“a tidal wave of blackness broke over her head. The entire world was obliterated–for a few minutes. She knew she had gone… — Susanna Kaysen Darkness Copy Share Image
“I was trying to explain my situation to myself. My situation was that I was in pain and nobody knew it; even… — Susanna Kaysen Pain Copy Share Image
Lunatics are similar to designated hitters. Often an entire family is crazy, but since an entire family can't go into the hospital,… — Susanna Kaysen Crazy Copy Share Image
Mental illness seems to be a communication problem between interpreters one and two. — Susanna Kaysen Communication Copy Share Image
Maybe I was just flirting with madness the way I flirted with my teachers and my classmates. — Susanna Kaysen Classmates Copy Share Image
Not everything has a happy ending, and not everything has an ending. Some things just kind of dribble away or cut off… — Susanna Kaysen Away Copy Share Image
My family had a lot of characteristics - achievements, ambitions, talents, expectations - that all seemed to be recessive in me. — Susanna Kaysen Achievement Copy Share Image
... now I was safe, now I was really crazy, and nobody could take me out of there. — Susanna Kaysen Crazy Copy Share Image
Was everybody seeing this stuff and acting as though they weren't? Was insanity just a matter of dropping the act? — Susanna Kaysen Acting Copy Share Image
“I think many people ill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won't.” — Susanna Kaysen Debate Copy Share Image
When women are angry at men, they call them heartless. When men are angry at women, they call them crazy. — Susanna Kaysen Angry Copy Share Image
It's one of the reasons I became a writer, to be able to smoke in peace. — Susanna Kaysen Able Copy Share Image
“I would if somebody would want to but of course nobody would want to so I wouldn't want to force anybody to… — Susanna Kaysen Anxiety Copy Share Image
“What does the sign say?” “ ‘If you lived here, you’d be home now.’ ” She clenched her hands with excitement. “See, every day… — Susanna Kaysen Every day Copy Share Image
In a strange way we were free. We'd reached the end of the line. We had nothing more to lose. Our privacy,… — Susanna Kaysen Bones Copy Share Image
When I was supposed to be awake, I was asleep. When I was supposed to sleep, I was silent. When a pleasure… — Susanna Kaysen Awake Copy Share Image
“Was everybody seeing this stuff and acting as though they weren't? Was insanity just a matter of dropping the act? If some… — Susanna Kaysen Insanity Copy Share Image
My father was judgmental and kind of mean, and I'm like that. And he was very perfectionistic, and I'm like that. And… — Susanna Kaysen Father Copy Share Image
Disease [is] as one of our languages. Doctors understand what disease has to say about itself. It's up to the person with… — Susanna Kaysen Disease Copy Share Image