“I miss how things were familiar with him, even if it was the familiar feeling of being let down.” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“Even the pigeons are dancing, kissing, going in circles, mounting each other. Paris is the city of love, even for the birds.” — Samantha Schutz Bird Copy Share Image
“I cry and wonder how I'm going to fall asleep because sleeping means waking and going through all this again” — Samantha Schutz Cry Copy Share Image
“I feel like a marionette - like someone else is pulling the strings and I have no choice but to comply.” — samantha schutz Marionette Copy Share Image
“I want things so bad that I force them, push them until they tear.” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I am in a house. I am in one room and my anxiety is in another. It's close. I can feel it.… — Samantha Schutz Anxiety Copy Share Image
“We need a voice from the outside because our own voices cannot be trusted.” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“It's good to know that I'm not the only unsuicidal person thinking about killing herself.” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“Is this what all the years of schooling were for? To prepare me for this Sense of being stuck in the middle?… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“All of a sudden the world opened up and it's doing it again now. In this garden there are so many stories,… — Samantha Schutz Garden Copy Share Image
“Bein with them is like walking in after a play has already started. You try to slip in quietly and find your… — Samantha Schutz Neighbors Copy Share Image
“But waiting is killing me. Don't they understand? Don't they remember what it feels like? I want to have things settled. I… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“Protection does not come in a bottle. It is in me, in my actions, in my thoughts. I am the best medicine… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I am trying to find myself in all of the chaos, find something that I can call me inside the screams and… — Samantha Schutz Screams Copy Share Image
“It would seem that losing the sadness would be a good thing, but it has been replaced by nothing -a quiet acceptance… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I have found a comfortable space- five feet six inches, one hundred and thirty pounds, with long fingers and toes, small breasts,… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I am fearful of romantic dinners, huge crowds, dusk - of normal things- afraid to be loved, the one thing I want… — Samantha Schutz Fear Copy Share Image
“I visit him a few times downtown while he paints. We talk about how he's going to Spain for the fall semester… — Samantha Schutz Artist Copy Share Image
“I crave broken men. When I try to save other people am I trying to save myself? Am I covering up for… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I am jealous of the little kid spinning around near the fountain. What would these people think if I were to start… — Samantha Schutz Greatest accomplishment Copy Share Image
“Most days it feels like I am watching a movie where the sound isn't in sync, the speed is all wrong. Either… — Samantha Schutz Movie Copy Share Image
“Where you are and what you are doing is something you have done dozens of times before without any problems Recognize that… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I'm trying to decide what's worse. Someone being gone, but still out there, or someone being gone forever, dead. I think someone… — Samantha Schutz Death Copy Share Image
“I can't believe no one else can hear I am screaming inside my head. Things are moving too fast. I am going… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“But shouldn't a limitless possibility of bad open the spectrum for a limitless possibility of good?” — Samantha Schutz Possibility Copy Share Image
“The panic, a voice in the distance -loud enough to hear, but quiet enough to ignore.” — Samantha Schutz Anxiety Copy Share Image
“The moment I drove away in September I felt like someone was following our car with an eraser, rubbing out my old… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“Little whit pills for calm and quiet, for sense of a composed face in a broken mirror.” — Samantha Schutz Broken mirror Copy Share Image
“An eye here, lips there, all misplaced and disjointed, all make sense.” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“My heart is empty. But my brain - my brain is full. It races with thoughts of what could have been.” — Samantha Schutz Brain Copy Share Image
“So afraid to go outside, to be happy, to be with other people, because they do not understand what it is like.” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I have been telling myself that these feelings are new, but they aren't, I just didn't connect them before” — Samantha Schutz Feelings Copy Share Image
