“I visit him a few times downtown while he paints. We talk about how he's going to Spain for the fall semester… — Samantha Schutz Painting Copy Share Image
“It would seem that losing the sadness would be a good thing, but it has been replaced by nothing -a quiet acceptance… — Samantha Schutz Day life Copy Share Image
“I shut my eyes and see a pocket of darkness. I want to fold myself flat and crisp, slip inside of it… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“Most days it feels like I am watching a movie where the sound isn't in sync, the speed is all wrong. Either… — Samantha Schutz Movie Copy Share Image
“When kids make gross face, parents say, "One day your face is going to stick like that." I'm afraid that one day… — Samantha Schutz Entire life Copy Share Image
“I wish i had been there to hold his hand,brush the dark hair away from his cloudy blue eyes..whisper to him over… — Samantha Schutz Dark hair Copy Share Image
“I miss how things were familiar with him, even if it was the familiar feeling of being let down.” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“The panic, a voice in the distance -loud enough to hear, but quiet enough to ignore.” — Samantha Schutz Anxiety Copy Share Image
“I have found a comfortable space- five feet six inches, one hundred and thirty pounds, with long fingers and toes, small breasts,… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“When the shivering and shaking stops, I know that I will be okay, but my jaw is still tight, and my knees… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I am so close to the edge that I could vomit, so close that it would be easy to jump.” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I can't believe no one else can hear I am screaming inside my head. Things are moving too fast. I am going… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I am having a hard time throwing off the skin that I pick and peel.” — Samantha Schutz Hard time Copy Share Image
“It's good to know that I'm not the only unsuicidal person thinking about killing herself.” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I don't like this idea It is too much focus on something I am trying to forget I am afraid that this… — Samantha Schutz Afraid Copy Share Image
“But waiting is killing me. Don't they understand? Don't they remember what it feels like? I want to have things settled. I… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I am fearful of romantic dinners, huge crowds, dusk - of normal things- afraid to be loved, the one thing I want… — Samantha Schutz Fear Copy Share Image
“So afraid to go outside, to be happy, to be with other people, because they do not understand what it is like.” — Samantha Schutz Fear Copy Share Image
“I am jealous of the little kid spinning around near the fountain. What would these people think if I were to start… — Samantha Schutz Greatest accomplishment Copy Share Image
“I have been telling myself that these feelings are new, but they aren't, I just didn't connect them before” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“I don't think that I am happy, but then again, I don't know. Sometimes I get so caught up in the process… — Samantha Schutz Fitness Copy Share Image
“I have only a general sense of the pain, of not being able to control my body and my thoughts. All I… — Samantha Schutz Pain Copy Share Image
“I want things so bad that I force them, push them until they tear.” — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
