“Everyone is looking up toward us, but I am looking back.” — Samantha Schutz Looking Copy Share Image
“I am so close to the edge that I could vomit, so close that it would be easy to jump.” — Samantha Schutz Jump Copy Share Image
“I am having a hard time throwing off the skin that I pick and peel.” — Samantha Schutz Hard time Copy Share Image
“Most days I go home crying and my dad tells me welcome to the real world.” — Samantha Schutz Crying Copy Share Image
“I am left with a feeling and I cannot tell if it's emptiness or fullness.” — Samantha Schutz Emptiness Copy Share Image
“I feel empty confused hurt numb disoriented mad vulnerable insignificant blurry tired sweaty overwhelmed temporary anxious” — Samantha Schutz Confused Hurt Copy Share Image
“An eye here, lips there, all misplaced and disjointed, all make sense.” — Samantha Schutz Make sense Copy Share Image
“Little whit pills for calm and quiet, for sense of a composed face in a broken mirror.” — Samantha Schutz Broken mirror Copy Share Image
“I miss how things were familiar with him, even if it was the familiar feeling of being let down.” — Samantha Schutz Familiar Copy Share Image
“It's weird to hear this again - to hear how I was perceived by people before they got to know me. Some… — Samantha Schutz Truth Copy Share Image
“She says it's like a switch - a big red PANIC switch - gets flipped in my head and I can't turn… — Samantha Schutz Copy Share Image
“When I try to save other people am I trying to save myself? Am I covering up for my lack of strength… — Samantha Schutz Trying Copy Share Image
“I am not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am… — Samantha Schutz Unhappy Copy Share Image
“Death is the period at the end of a sentence. Someone gone, but still out there, is an ellipsis...or a question to… — Samantha Schutz Death Copy Share Image
“I shut my eyes and see a pocket of darkness. I want to fold myself flat and crisp, slip inside of it… — Samantha Schutz Shut Eyes Copy Share Image
“I wish i had been there to hold his hand,brush the dark hair away from his cloudy blue eyes..whisper to him over… — Samantha Schutz Dark hair Copy Share Image
“When the shivering and shaking stops, I know that I will be okay, but my jaw is still tight, and my knees… — Samantha Schutz Shaking Copy Share Image
“Most days it feels like I am watching a movie where the sound isn't in sync, the speed is all wrong. Either… — Samantha Schutz Movie Copy Share Image
“I visit him a few times downtown while he paints. We talk about how he's going to Spain for the fall semester… — Samantha Schutz Painting Copy Share Image
“I am fearful of romantic dinners, huge crowds, dusk - of normal things- afraid to be loved, the one thing I want… — Samantha Schutz Fear Copy Share Image
“I can't believe no one else can hear I am screaming inside my head. Things are moving too fast. I am going… — Samantha Schutz Scream Copy Share Image
“I'm trying to decide what's worse. Someone being gone, but still out there, or someone being gone forever, dead. I think someone… — Samantha Schutz Death Copy Share Image
“The panic, a voice in the distance -loud enough to hear, but quiet enough to ignore.” — Samantha Schutz Anxiety Copy Share Image
“The moment I drove away in September I felt like someone was following our car with an eraser, rubbing out my old… — Samantha Schutz Drove Copy Share Image
“I am in a house. I am in one room and my anxiety is in another. It's close. I can feel it.… — Samantha Schutz Anxiety Copy Share Image
“But shouldn't a limitless possibility of bad open the spectrum for a limitless possibility of good?” — Samantha Schutz Possibility Copy Share Image
“It's good to know that I'm not the only unsuicidal person thinking about killing herself.” — Samantha Schutz Dying Copy Share Image
“Putting the potential for damage into someone else's hands is scary. I have to have control, even if it is the power… — Samantha Schutz Self destruct Copy Share Image
“When kids make gross face, parents say, "One day your face is going to stick like that." I'm afraid that one day… — Samantha Schutz Entire life Copy Share Image
“I don't like this idea It is too much focus on something I am trying to forget I am afraid that this… — Samantha Schutz Afraid Copy Share Image
“I am trying to find myself in all of the chaos, find something that I can call me inside the screams and… — Samantha Schutz Screams Copy Share Image
“It would seem that losing the sadness would be a good thing, but it has been replaced by nothing -a quiet acceptance… — Samantha Schutz Day life Copy Share Image
“I have found a comfortable space- five feet six inches, one hundred and thirty pounds, with long fingers and toes, small breasts,… — Samantha Schutz Inches Copy Share Image
“Is this what all the years of schooling were for? To prepare me for this Sense of being stuck in the middle?… — Samantha Schutz Crying Copy Share Image
