“Yep. Ive been suicidal since I was 8 years old. Back then I had to deal with it each and every single night. I wanted to commit suidice before I knew what it was. I didnt know about wrist slitting or ODing. All I knew is that I wanted to die and that we had knives. I just supposed that stabbing myself in the heart would work. The biggest problem with being so suicidal for so long is that it really makes you hate life. I know, I know, life is a precious gift, but my biggest problem is a religious one. I love everything about Jesus, but the reward you were supposed to have for following God is eternal life ; but to me, THATS hell. An eternity of this??? ARE YOU SERIOUS?!!?! Geez¦makes you want to kill yourself, doesnt it But seriously, I wonder if anyone else feels this way. O, and my suicidal thoughts are brought about by bipolar type II and just the horrible things that have happened in my life.”
