“I learnt that loneliness is not real; it only dwells in our lustful imagination. I learn that fear is not real; it only lives in our imagination. Fear comes to our present as a result of our past and when we make it our area of residence it brings agitation into our lives. The past is full of impossibilities, things we cannot change-so it brings fear. Fear is what wed created in our reality. The present is only our belief, fleeting moment. The future is possible so we have some control over it. Whether this theory worked for me or not I cannot fathom. My entire life has been a constant battle between what I want, what I know, and what terrifies me. Most often than not they all end up being the same thing which for me can be very confusing and isolating. I run away from love. I crave it, but I run away from it. I have spent my entire life settling for what I know I can live without rather than putting myself in a position I know could completely destroy me.”
