“I’m not interested in Bob Marley telling me to ‘lively up’ myself. The only music that satisfies me is Nine Inch Nails and Trent Reznor’s voice crying through industrial rhytms. In the August evenings, I lie on my bed with… — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share Image
“So at family gatherings… I try to stick to the acceptable script. Indeed, I discover that the less I say, the happier everyone seems to be with me. I sometimes wonder if I wouldn’t have been better off as a paraplegic or afflicted by some tragic form of cancer. The invisibility and periodicity of my disorder, along with how often… — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share
“All you want is love and belonging, and your very existence depends on it. But when you get it, you have no existence except… — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share Image
“wonder: How much of what I feel as neglect has been fueled by the force of my constant need? How much can any person… — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share Image
“I may have no emotional skin and come undone at the smallest interpersonal upset, but I’d make a great bullfighter or firefighter—anything that gets my adrenaline going and focuses me on a physical target. The motorcycle is all of that and more. When I’m on the bike, it feels like a door opens in my chest and the world rushes… — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share
“I’ve read that, for some borderlines, the flip side of abandonment fear is the fear of engulfment. It’s another one of those “screwed if… — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share Image
“Connection gives us our life, yet it also threatens to take it from us.” — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share Image
“Ironically, the word “borderline” has become the most perfect expression of my experience— the experience of being in two places at once: disordered and… — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share Image
“DBT's catchphrase of developing a life worth living means you're not just surviving; rather, you have good reasons for living. I'm also getting better… — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share Image
“I'm so good at beginnings, but in the end I always seem to destroy everything, including myself.” — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share Image
“recognizing how even poison is a form of medicine when used the right way.” — Kiera Van Gelder Copy Share Image
