I tighten the rope and stood on the chair with my bare…
“I tighten the rope and stood on the chair with my bare feet, alone in my room. I start counting from one to ten and with each number I kick a bottle of gin, to make my feet sore and bleed from its core. One¦The only god I believe in. Two¦My feet that helped me stand. Three¦My family I ruined. Four¦The cuts on my right foot reached the core¦Five¦The number mistakes I've done in my life. Six¦seven¦eight¦nine¦ten¦!!I look behind to see all the other souls, running away from life, just like me. I'm waiting for my turn¦God's angels call me in¦finally! I'm on my way daughter!! They open the doors and I see¦I see¦ I see the flames of hell fire! Angels tell me that I don't deserve heaven. I should've waited till my day, but I've taken my life early away¦So hell is what awaits me! I'm sorry everyone but I've also messed up this one¦God said¦never kill yourself¦Always wait until your day comes, or else you'll go to hell for a test you never tried to overcome..”
About This Quote
This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation.
The speaker describes self‑harm as a ritual, confronting guilt and fear of afterlife, ending with a plea for divine mercy.
In simple terms: Self‑harm as a desperate coping mechanism and spiritual struggle.
Key Takeaway
Seek help, not self‑destruction.
Themes
mental health
guilt
spirituality
despair
redemption
Mood
despair
hopeful
reflective
Type
poetic
confessional
emotional
When to use this quote
- personal crisis
- mental health crisis
- spiritual questioning
Key Concepts
self‑harm
religion
suicide
afterlife
Questions to Reflect On
- What healthier ways can you cope with guilt?
- Do you have trusted people to talk to?
A Different Perspective
Self‑harm can worsen mental health and ignore professional help.