Nikki Gemmell

“The shame dies. Just like that, so DH Lawrence wrote. Shame, which is fear. AND judgement.”

— Nikki Gemmell

“Have faith in the wisdom of that we call change”

— Nikki Gemmell

“Let there be no hesitations, no regrets, no compromises - they are at once cowardly and vain.”

— Nikki Gemmell

People without curiosity are like houses without books: there's something unsettling about them.

— Nikki Gemmell

“She can't catch on to slumber, the relief of oblivion.”

— Nikki Gemmell

“An emptiness when you realize the loneliest you've ever been is within a marraige, as a wife”

— NIkki Gemmell

“[He] starts to talk and stops, feeling his way, as if it's all clogged up rusty inside.”

— Nikki Gemmell

“So, he feels now, that he doesn't have to try. And you want him more than you ever have before.”

— Nikki Gemmell

“You don't dare to think ahead too much, for you don't want this melted under the heat of your attention, don't want…

— Nikki Gemmell

“You're living your days at the moment how a sheep grazes, meandering, not engaged with anything much.”

— Nikki Gemmell

“No one except your husband knows of the cautiousness at the heart of your life. Your adulthood has been a progressive retreat…

— Nikki Gemmell

Remember that the sudden decision to stop fighting, and just go with the flow, can be incredibly releasing. Resistance is just so…

— Nikki Gemmell

“...no matter how much Theo achieves and acquires and out-dazzles everyone else, she never seems content. She's taught you that people who…

— Nikki Gemmell

“You know in this moment that Gabriel is at your mercy, you can do what you want, he is completely yours and…

— Nikki Gemmell

“You feel you're learning everything about love as you watch him, from the other side. He imagines you leaving your cozy London…

— Nikki Gemmell

“You feel something you haven't for years: it's to do with university parties with bathtubs of alcohol and the smell of hamburgers…

— Nikki Gemmell

Alone you're refinding a glittering, a clarity, you're finding your distilled self. ...You think of the two types of aloneness you've known…

— Nikki Gemmell

“There were the endless birthday nights and New Year's Eves of just you in your bed and no one else. There was…

— Nikki Gemmell

“Striding, finally, into the solitude. You feel as if part of your body has been ripped from you, as if flesh has…

— Nikki Gemmell

“What is the shocking weakness in virtually every man you know well? The whimpering like children when they're ill. The need for…

— Nikki Gemmell

Is it love, obsession, infatuation? You don't know. You think of a strange and beautiful word you read about once, Limerance, a…

— Nikki Gemmell

An emptiness rules at its core, a rottenness, a silence when one of you retires to bed without saying good night, when…

— Nikki Gemmell

Our natural and happiest life is when we lose ourselves in the exquisite absorption of home.

— Nikki Gemmell

And I am in love with light. Lock me in the sunshine.

— Nikki Gemmell