I dont know where to start¦ I have been dealing with…

“I dont know where to start¦ I have been dealing with depression, stress, anxiety and occasional suicidal thoughts now for years. I never (until recently) talked to anyone about my problems, which I believe was a huge mistake. I feel that this problem I have within myself is hurting not only myself, but those around me. every day has its ups and downs, and some days are better than others¦ I feel empty inside, I cant carry on conversation with anybody because I feel like I dont have anything interesting to say and I find myself struggling to try and talk, so I just sit back and listen and watch the world evolve around me. I'm tired, emotionally and physically. I feel like I'm a huge dissapointment to those around me, even though I am not. even as I type this I just feel a huge emptyness within myself, and I cant even type out in words how I feel¦ I dont know how much longer I can deal with this feeling, it hurts so bad! today will not be my last day I know that already, but someday soon I may find myself in a place where I cannot go any further. I wish I could get a grip on this hurting I feel, I'm tired of crying, tired of hurting¦ just tired of living. but I continue to hold my head up and try to believe something good is just around the corner. have a good day everyone.”

— Anonymous