“perhaps our purpose is, for the time being, to be human, to live on this earth and in this human community, to… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
I get absolutely shitfaced. I am shitfaced and hyper and ten years old. I am having the time of my life. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
• This seems impossible to me. It seems biologically impossible to stay the same size, although I must. It seems one must… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Bear in mind you have a life to live. There is an incredible loss. There is a profound grief. And there is,… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
The idea of my future simultaneously thrilled and terrified me, like standing at the lip of a very sheer cliff- I could… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
I have never been normal about my body. It has always seemed to me a strange and foreign entity. I don't know… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
And so I am feeling numb. It's a curious feeling, and I get it all the time. My attention to the world… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
Recovery isn’t easy, at first. It takes time. It takes more work, sometimes, than you think you’re willing to do. But it… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“The last place I want to be is the hospital, but I'm not stupid. I know when it's time to go in.… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“But at that moment—the moment of realization that life as I’d been living it would have to end—I felt devastation unlike any… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
For a long time I believed the opposite of passion was death. I was wrong. Passion and death are implicit, one in… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“There are a lot of times the heart burrows deeper, goes tunnelling into itself for reasons only the heart itself seems to… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
I was perpetually grief-stricken when I finished a book, and would slide down from my sitting position on the bed, put my… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“I didn't particularly want to live much longer than that. Life seemed rather daunting. It seems so to me even now. Life… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
At times it may seem worse - harder, at least - to live through the despair of this loss without the temporary… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Uncle Joe used to spend a fair amount of time in the loony bin. My family wasn't bothered by his regular trips… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“You begin to forget what it means to live. You forget things. You forget that you used to feel all right. You… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
There was a time when I was unable to get out of bed because my body, its muscles eating themselves away, refused… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Something had been confirmed: I was worth giving a shit about; I was getting to be a successful sick person. Sick is when they… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
Because I'm not, in fact, depressed, Prozac makes me manic and numb - one of the reasons I slice my arm in the first… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
“perhaps our purpose is, for the time being, to be human, to live on this earth and in this human community, to receive something… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
I have never been normal about my body. It has always seemed to me a strange and foreign entity. I don't know that there… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
The joy is an absurd yellow tulip, popping up in my life, contradicting all the evidence that shows it should not be there. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
“At a certain point, an eating disorder ceases to be "about" any one thing. It stops being about your family, or your culture. Very… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
You can't teach an ear, you can't teach talent, but you can teach people who have those things not to just fly by the… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
It's really interesting to me how all of us can experience the exact same event, and yet come away with wildly disparate interpretations of… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
“Being here, living now, recognizing our smallness, is a spiritual practice. It allows us to be at peace with our humanity. It humbles us… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
We think of bulimia and anorexia as either a bizarre psychosis, or as a quirky little habit, a phase, or as a thing that… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
The anoretic operates under the astounding illusion that she can escape the flesh, and, by association, the realm of emotions. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
If I had been a different sort of person, maybe less impressionable, less intense, less fearful, less utterly dependent upon the perceptions of others… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
“Every morning I watched the sun rise and read a highly religious little meditation book and tried having a conversation with God. I waited… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
My bones are brittle, my heart weak and erratic, my esophagus and stomach riddled with ulcers, my reproductive system shot, my immune system useless...… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
One really ought to be afraid of self-torture. But it tempted me. It begged. The dark place that my mind was fast becoming blends,… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
