The biggest fear of my life is living. My second biggest fear is dying. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
I get absolutely shitfaced. I am shitfaced and hyper and ten years old. I am having the time of my life. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
The joy is an absurd yellow tulip, popping up in my life, contradicting all the evidence that shows it should not be… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
You can only whine for so long. Then you need to get your life back. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
You will miss her sometimes. Bear in mind she's trying to kill you. Bear in mind you have a life to live. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
When you're teaching creative nonfiction, it helps to have written about your life in a very open way, because you can say,… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
My students know I have a life, they know I've written about my life. They know some detail, probably more than they… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
When you believe that you are not worthwhile in and of yourself, in the back of your mind you also begin to… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Being here, living now, recognizing our smallness, is a spiritual practice. It allows us to be at peace with our humanity. It… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Bear in mind you have a life to live. There is an incredible loss. There is a profound grief. And there is,… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
But in some ways, the most significant choices one makes in life are done for reasons that are not all that dramatic,… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“The reward is entrance to the “world of the Spirit,” which is to say, entrance to this world, a place at this… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
I threw up again that night, half-afraid that my eyeballs would explode. But it was, by far, more important that I get… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
Recovery isn’t easy, at first. It takes time. It takes more work, sometimes, than you think you’re willing to do. But it… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“But at that moment—the moment of realization that life as I’d been living it would have to end—I felt devastation unlike any… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
Hospitalizations in general are blurry. The days are the same, precisely the same. Nothing changes. Life melts down to a simple progression… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“It is easy to write off childlike faith in the universe and childlike wonder at the world as simply a lack of… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
You never come back, not all the way. Always there is an odd distance between you and the people you love and… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
[I] learned ... that friends are a good source of food and soul when one has not yet gotten the hang of… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Forgetting who you are and where you are and if you're there. Getting lost in the thought that you might be imagining… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“I didn't particularly want to live much longer than that. Life seemed rather daunting. It seems so to me even now. Life… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Here's how you make absolutely sure that you'll keep getting crazier by the day: - Ignore everything your psychiatrist tells you. Disregard… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“And when, after fifteen years of bingeing, barfing, starving, needles and tubes and terror and rage, and medical crises and personal failure… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“It's never over. Not really. Not when you stay down there as long as I did, not when you've lived in the… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Death is a fascinating thing. The human mind continually returns and returns to death, to mortality, immortality, damnation, salvation. Some fear death,… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“The leap of faith is this: You have to believe, or at least pretend you believe until you really believe it, that… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
Madness is not what it seems. Time stops. All my life I've been obsessed with time, its motion and velocity, the way… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Something had been confirmed: I was worth giving a shit about; I was getting to be a successful sick person. Sick is when they… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
Because I'm not, in fact, depressed, Prozac makes me manic and numb - one of the reasons I slice my arm in the first… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
“perhaps our purpose is, for the time being, to be human, to live on this earth and in this human community, to receive something… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
I have never been normal about my body. It has always seemed to me a strange and foreign entity. I don't know that there… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
The joy is an absurd yellow tulip, popping up in my life, contradicting all the evidence that shows it should not be there. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
“At a certain point, an eating disorder ceases to be "about" any one thing. It stops being about your family, or your culture. Very… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
You can't teach an ear, you can't teach talent, but you can teach people who have those things not to just fly by the… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
It's really interesting to me how all of us can experience the exact same event, and yet come away with wildly disparate interpretations of… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
“Being here, living now, recognizing our smallness, is a spiritual practice. It allows us to be at peace with our humanity. It humbles us… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
We think of bulimia and anorexia as either a bizarre psychosis, or as a quirky little habit, a phase, or as a thing that… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
The anoretic operates under the astounding illusion that she can escape the flesh, and, by association, the realm of emotions. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
If I had been a different sort of person, maybe less impressionable, less intense, less fearful, less utterly dependent upon the perceptions of others… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
“Every morning I watched the sun rise and read a highly religious little meditation book and tried having a conversation with God. I waited… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
My bones are brittle, my heart weak and erratic, my esophagus and stomach riddled with ulcers, my reproductive system shot, my immune system useless...… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
One really ought to be afraid of self-torture. But it tempted me. It begged. The dark place that my mind was fast becoming blends,… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share
![“[I] learned ... that friends are a good source of food and soul when one has not yet gotten the hang of cooking or living (as opposed to dying) alone. That nothing-not booze, not love, not sex, not work, not moving from state to state-will make the past disappear. Only time and patience heal…” quote by Marya Hornbacher](https://sms4smile.com/q/img-quotes/fb9/marya-hornbacher-2109_arms_i-learned-that-friends-are-a-good-source_2817345.png)
