““blood as well. The thing is, shit like this—well, it’s a virus you can’t ever get rid of. I feel myself failing. I feel my bones aching to sink back into this sick little world of greed and sin, and so I distance myself from her. I wanted to be a normal person. I’ve tried. Hell, I even enrolled at a university in an attempt to make an honest living. Although, I know the kind of lifestyle I was once accustomed to can only come from illegal activities. For all intents and purposes, on paper, I am normal. The thing is, shit like this—well, it’s a virus you can’t ever get rid of. I feel myself failing. I feel my bones aching to sink back into this sick little world of greed and sin. The winter wind whips through””
![“When it seemed like I was going to really have to be there at Todd's [Willingham] execution, I don't think I could have done it. I think I began to distance myself. I didn't visit as often; I didn't write as often. This was kind of after my conversation with [fire science expert] Gerald Hurst. And…” quote by Elizabeth Gilbert](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/img-quotes/f23/elizabeth-gilbert-131_accidents_when-it-seemed-like-i-was-going-to-reall_469750.jpg)
