“While divorce never quite makes sense, the someday part is here¦after going through all of the pain, confusions and sadness, and emerging on the other side a happier, stronger, more confident, observant, faithful woman, I wouldnt change what happened for the world. And I know that probably still sounds a bit strange, but I wouldnt. Just walking into the courthouse with Pete (since, did I mention, he wanted to drive together to the courthouse? Strange, yes, but apparently, not so strange for us!) today, I felt like I was the leader, I was taking change, and he was following. Im struck by how not different he is, and as Ive mentioned before, thats the part that is dissapointing, because I have learned so much from this, but I still dont think he has learned much from it, or really still knows WHY he did it. But thats for him to figure out, not me, I am settled with it, I am at peace with it, and I am content. Blissfully content. Because I know everything happens for a reason and God is watching over me and this was written as part of my journey in life, and I feel Ive conquered it successfully and proven my faith to God, and to myself, through all of this. I feel empowered and incredibly happy right now.”
