“Dear mom, what did I ever do to you? I just dont get why you hate me so much mom. I try so damn hard to make you proud. I know I fuck up each time. thats only because I miss my old life. you know? the life that I got told I was beautiful everyday. told I was loved. we used to have this strong relationship. and now, we're nothing? I just dont know what happened. am I not good enough for you anymore? am I too stupid? do you just like sitting there knowing I cry myself to sleep everynight? in public you act like you love me soo much, but at home? nothing. being yelled at, telling me I'm stupid. saying I'm pathetic? calling me a slut? how? why?! why do you love my brother and sisters so much more than me? I'm nothing to you aint i? you always tell them you love them, but me? nothing at all. I just need a fucking answers. why am I such a mommy little mistake?! mom, I just want to have a normal life. not this kind, not this way. I'm sorry I'm such a disppointment to you. just remember mom, if I come up missing or end up dead.. just remember how you described me. just a pathetic nobody. love, the daughter you never wanted.”
