“I never told you because I thought you knew, but I am not sure that would change what you planned so long to do. I had a funny feeling something was wrong, when my cell phone went off at two in the morning- playing our song. And then I woke to find that you had died, but I couldn't find the tears or I would've cried. Your parents loved you and they told you, but that didn't stop what you planned so long to do. You were a terrific person, a tough and determined guy I never saw you worry and I never saw you cry. I have wasted many tears on you, I have prayed for you too. But every day I wonder if you'd still be here if you knew, if only you listened, you would have known I loved you too.”
