“I cant take this anymore seeing the road infront of me my past behind in the shadows why cant I step out and face my fears or do I have to keep them bottled up inside silently.. everything that I have ever wanted I have gained yet lost with one lilttle action of hate I know I'm not perfect I know what people expect of me how they laugh at the fact that I dont know why I feel this way I'm tired sick I want to rest but too scared to shut my eyes when trying to forget all that is lost I find its right here beside me its hauting how I cant fight it how I just give in to what I hate to what I yearn to what I fear.. memories always cut the skin so deep more then what I have done out of my own actions blood is spilled, it stains the carpet, it bears my hands why do I stay in the past? I dont need it anymore...i dont want it...WHY CANT YOU JUST TAKE IT AWAY!!!!!!!???? do I fear what I hate? or do I yearn what I fear? either way I know one thing ..there are times for tears and fears...this isnt one of them...hauting..is it not?”
