“Fuck! I cant do this I cant do this I cant do this. Even if theyre saying the sweetest, nicest, loveliest stuff that I always wanted people in my dreams to fucking say, and they seem so fucking sincere, and they really seem to fucking care about me¦ I JUST CANT DO IT. I cant trust them. I am so sure theyre lying to me, or theyre talking absolute shit to me. I dont know why, but it seems the only logical reason in my mind. And Im trying so hard to believe, but its a lot fucking harder than it looks.”
