“I have a deep and passionate longing for that fulfillment of my spirit, and yet every time I feel that spark ignite and that flame begin in my soul. . . It is seemingly puffed out by the darkness and sin of my thoughts.. What must I do to keep that flame alive? For I have felt an apparent change in spirit, which to be true, is said to be felt there always.. If so have I not truly experienced this wonderful change of heart?.. For as I survey my heart, It once again feels empty and alone.. my soul longs for a true and definite repentance. But what must I do to receive this? How can I be sure that the flame will stay lit for eternity?.. not some false feeling of hope.”
