Dear god Quote by Chica Umino
““I had wanted to call him. There were so many things I wanted to talk to him about. And that I wanted to ask him about. But... I kind of hated myself... for feeling that way. Because... thinking about Nomiya-san... felt like a betrayal of myself, of everything I'd felt for the past six years. It made my feelings for Mayama seem like a lie. Other people might think it's pathetic. That I'm pathetic. But my feelings for Mayama... My love for him... Was the only thing I had. It was my treasure. My cold, bright treasure. Dear God. I never wanted to be saved. I wanted to stay miserably in love with Mayama forever. I wanted to stay in love with him for ten years, twenty years, so he would know just how strong my love was. ...Even though I knew that would be totally meaningless.””
About This Quote
Source Manga: Honey and Clover, Volume 5, 2005
The narrator grapples with conflicted love, feeling guilt for longing for a new affection while fearing betrayal of past devotion.
In simple terms: She feels torn between old love and new desire, fearing self‑betrayal.
Key Takeaway
Acknowledge complex emotions without self‑judgment.
Themes
love
guilt
identity
longing
betrayal
Mood
melancholic
introspective
conflicted
Type
literary
emotional
When to use this quote
- relationship breakup
- self‑reflection
- confessing feelings
- personal growth
Key Concepts
emotional conflict
self‑acceptance
unrequited love
Questions to Reflect On
- What does it mean to love someone for a decade?
- How can we honor past feelings while embracing change?
A Different Perspective
The intensity of love may be fleeting, making long‑term devotion unrealistic.
