“Nobody knows how to be a grown-up. We're all just pretending for each other.” — Leah Raeder Nobody knows Copy Share Image
“Usually the thought process for a seventeen-year-old boy went girl touching me > omg > boner.” — Leah Raeder Funny Copy Share Image
“It could have been anyone,” I said. “All the women who look at you when we go out. Ms. Bisette at school.… — Leah Raeder Better job Copy Share Image
“No pretensions of goodness, of trying to do the right thing. We’d both wanted to embrace this fucked-up thing between us.” — Leah Raeder Right thing Copy Share Image
“Two boys, both in varsity football, kissing under the bleachers, muscular silhouettes merging against the deep purple sky. I wasn’t the only… — Leah Raeder Copy Share Image
“Yeah, I hook up with older guys. And then I leave them, before they can leave me. Thanks for the abandonment issues,… — Leah Raeder Abandonment Issues Copy Share Image
“But Mom’s shamelessness and weakness of will had led me to become the opposite: stubborn and proud. Too proud to ask for… — Leah Raeder Ask for help Copy Share Image
“...You should love something while you have it, love it fully and without reservation, even if you know you'll lose it someday.… — Leah Raeder Heart beat Copy Share Image
“You're so alive, Maise. You're so here, so present in the moment. You've taught me that happiness is possible now, not in… — Leah Raeder Face your fears Copy Share Image
“The removal of all boundaries, all distractions, leaving us with nothing but each other - scary. What kind of people would we… — Leah Raeder Copy Share Image
“I'm not over you. I dream about you every night. I watch that fucking video over and over just to hear your… — Leah Raeder Every night Copy Share Image
“And always, in my pocket, in my skin, in the back of my mind, the hollowness where he used to be. The… — Leah Raeder Psychology Copy Share Image
“The funny thing was that his kiss had felt like fucking me, and his fucking me felt like being kissed, everywhere, every… — Leah Raeder Copy Share Image
“The pony stared at us lugubriously from the dashboard. Jesus. Little fucker had watched the whole thing.” — Leah Raeder Humor Copy Share Image
“The brain is an incredible multitasker. At the same time that it’s piercing itself with superheated needles of anguish, it’s ruthlessly making… — Leah Raeder Heartbreak Copy Share Image
“When he drove away I took a picture of the receding tail lights, and after his car was gone I stood there… — Leah Raeder Long time Copy Share Image
“Just that. A pleasant daze. My body was full of sunlight. No blood, just liquid blue sky.” — Leah Raeder Blue sky Copy Share Image
“I touched his hand, carefully. Not too intimate, but not some half-assed there-there pat, either. Would he understand? Usually the thought process… — Leah Raeder High school Copy Share Image
“You said you didn't know how to have a grown-up relationship. Well, here's your first lesson, Maise. When it gets hard, you… — Leah Raeder Copy Share Image
“The storm front had finally broken, tatters of cloud pulling apart like cotton candy and sprinkling the sky with the bright sugar… — Leah Raeder Cotton candy Copy Share Image
“But every stroke of the brush, every lyric, every word whispered between human beings resulted from the pain of being alone. In… — Leah Raeder Alone Copy Share Image
