““i am human the lining of mucus still bargain the vain i fear is like a miracle ordinary people would always know about their heart but as for me,, CLUELESS nobody knows me well nobody understands me nobody would care eventhough how much i put an effort into it im helpless till now i didnt changed i really dont and how much my aunt would advice its just like pouring water into the leaves i dunt want it to be, i want to accomplish as i want it to be like i always wanted but i dun know why am i so cruel to myself i didnt try at all i let it go to be like i dunt want it to be i wont let it go to be like i want it to be””