“L.O.V.E.... Dont say I love you because I know it's not true; dont expect me to say I love you too. Love means nothing to me its a word like hey. A word people would use every day. Don't say I love you, when I know youre really thinking about her. Don't try to take away the hurt. Don't keep coming back to me, attacking me with your lies. Dont say the things that describe you in the same sentence as my name. Don't expect that you'll get the schools fame. Dont keep trying to break me down, because Ill just keep coming back up stronger. Now I can laugh because you cant hurt me no longer. You know my past? Well then ya might wanna think fast, because Ive used my brain to get throw my own mess... I can use my brain to confess all your lies and pathetic drama put upon me... Im the liar? The cheater? The pathetic little girl WISHING to be with the jock (more like jerk) of our grade? dont test me because you really dont know me... you think you can be cool... but you dont know what I can do... one day I will make you want to crawl back to me.. Begging... HELPLESS... like you've once called me.... I can be your best friend or your worst nightmare.... Im no little girl any more... Ive learned in my life how to take care of myself... but have you? Youve got the mom, the dad the normal life... you dont cry at night because of the torment that one day is over... but another one will come in a few hours... you've never been called worthless, pathetic have you? I've built back up my life... and you wont take it back down..... crying yourself to sleep most nights... afraid to trust, afraid that if its pitch black and you turn on the light...HE will be standing behind you ready to take you and do what he did before... only in this case... it will be me that you will be scared of... it will be ME that makes you want to shrivel up and not do anything but you push yourself to be happy... to be like normal people... step in my shoes and feel the pain... feel the days go by and then one day you finally see the sun you actually see the flowers and how everything MIGHT just be okay... when YOU learn to be YOUR mother and YOUR father.... LOVE does NOT exist in my world... so do NOT say it because its as worthless as the daily HELLO you say to people...”
