“At a certain point, an eating disorder ceases to be "about" any one thing. It stops being about your family, or your… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“And when, after fifteen years of bingeing, barfing, starving, needles and tubes and terror and rage, and medical crises and personal failure… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
This is the very boring part of eating disorders, the aftermath. When you eat and hate that you eat. And yet of… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
Recovery isn’t easy, at first. It takes time. It takes more work, sometimes, than you think you’re willing to do. But it… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
I know how this feels: the tightening of the chest, the panic, the what-have-I-done-wait-I-was-kidding. Eating disorders linger so long undetected, eroding the… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
You will miss her sometimes. Bear in mind she's trying to kill you. Bear in mind you have a life to live. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
I have a remarkable ability to delete all better judgement from my brain when I get my head set on something. I… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
Some people who are obsessed with food become gourmet chefs. Others become eating disorders. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
People with eating disorders tend to be very diametrical thinkers – everything is the end of the world, everything rides on this… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“The leap of faith is this: You have to believe, or at least pretend you believe until you really believe it, that… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
We turn skeletons into goddesses and look to them as if they might teach us how not to need. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
I don't think people realize, when they're just getting started on an eating disorder or even when they're in the grip of… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
Bear in mind, people with eating disorders tend to be both competitive and intelligent. We are incredibly perfectionistic. We often excel in… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“It is a visual temper tantrum. You are making an ineffective statement about this and that, a grotesque, self-defeating mockery of cultural… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“At the lip of a cliff, I look out over Lake Superior, through the bare branches of birches and the snow-covered branches… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“There are a lot of times the heart burrows deeper, goes tunnelling into itself for reasons only the heart itself seems to… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
• Eating disorders are addictions. You become addicted to a number of their effects. The two most basic and important: the pure… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Bear in mind you have a life to live. There is an incredible loss. There is a profound grief. And there is,… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
It is not a sudden leap from sick to well. It is a slow, strange meander from sick to mostly well. The… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Something had been confirmed: I was worth giving a shit about; I was getting to be a successful sick person. Sick is when they… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
Because I'm not, in fact, depressed, Prozac makes me manic and numb - one of the reasons I slice my arm in the first… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“perhaps our purpose is, for the time being, to be human, to live on this earth and in this human community, to receive something… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
I have never been normal about my body. It has always seemed to me a strange and foreign entity. I don't know that there… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
The joy is an absurd yellow tulip, popping up in my life, contradicting all the evidence that shows it should not be there. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“At a certain point, an eating disorder ceases to be "about" any one thing. It stops being about your family, or your culture. Very… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
You can't teach an ear, you can't teach talent, but you can teach people who have those things not to just fly by the… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
It's really interesting to me how all of us can experience the exact same event, and yet come away with wildly disparate interpretations of… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
“Being here, living now, recognizing our smallness, is a spiritual practice. It allows us to be at peace with our humanity. It humbles us… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
We think of bulimia and anorexia as either a bizarre psychosis, or as a quirky little habit, a phase, or as a thing that… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
The anoretic operates under the astounding illusion that she can escape the flesh, and, by association, the realm of emotions. — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
If I had been a different sort of person, maybe less impressionable, less intense, less fearful, less utterly dependent upon the perceptions of others… — Marya Hornbacher Copy Share Image
