“I smile. On the inside though, so no one can see. A secret smile just for me.” — Cat Clarke Secret Copy Share Image
“The butterflies in my stomach turn into vampire bats as we pull up to the school.” — Cat Clarke Butterflies Copy Share Image
“Everyone’s got secrets, Jem. It’s what makes people interesting.” — Cat Clarke People Copy Share Image
“He drives a newish-looking silver van. Man in van = obviously dodgy.” — Cat Clarke Humor Copy Share Image
“The thought of going to sleep forever was delicious. I was so very tired.” — Cat Clarke Asleep Copy Share Image
“Kind of just existed from day to day, on weird plateau of feeling nothingness.” — Cat Clarke Cat-clarke Copy Share Image
“It’s amazing, the lies you can tell yourself. Even more amazing, the lies you can believe when you’re desperate enough.” — Cat Clarke Lies Copy Share Image
“It may just be a small step in a bigger battle, but it was something at least. Before you know it, lots… — Cat Clarke Small steps Copy Share Image
“Has this version of me been lurking there all along, somewhere deep below the surface, biding its time, waiting for its chance… — Cat Clarke Reflection Copy Share Image
“Our midnight feasts aren't so much 'lashings of ginger beer' as 'whatever booze we can smuggle in'.” — Cat Clarke Boarding school Copy Share Image
“I wanted to grab his stupid ears and smash his stupid head against the door until his stupid brains leaked out. Instead,… — Cat Clarke Cat-clarke Copy Share Image
“Everyone thought that things were getting back to normal. They had no idea that normal didn’t exist for me any more. Normal… — Cat Clarke After Copy Share Image
“I should have known that the cruelty of girls is intensified here, living together 24/7, hundreds of miles away from home.” — Cat Clarke Boarding school Copy Share Image
“To be perfectly honest, it scared me a little. You get so used to seeing the same thing in the mirror every… — Cat Clarke Appearance Copy Share Image
“Kai, are you sure you’re OK? You’re acting a little weird.’ He kissed me on the forehead. ‘Ah, Jemima! Weirdness is one… — Cat Clarke Friendship Copy Share Image
“That was progress, right there. Except no one would ever know how hard I was working to keep my temper under control,… — Cat Clarke Anger Copy Share Image
“It's too weird to think about - how death seems to rewrite all the rules. People who never talked to each other… — Cat Clarke Death Copy Share Image
“It’s not that I mind being alone, not really. I can distract myself with silly fantasies and daydreams for hours, but in… — Cat Clarke Daydreams Copy Share Image
“I know people think suicide is selfish, and maybe sometimes it really is. But what happened to Kai was beyond what anyone… — Cat Clarke Broke my heart Copy Share Image
“It struck me that there would always be a part of him that didn’t (and shouldn’t) belong to me. It’s all too… — Cat Clarke Belong Copy Share Image
“I can just close my eyes and let myself fall into oblivion. Maybe I'll hit the exact same rocks and my blood… — Cat Clarke Chilling Copy Share Image
“They had no idea that normal didn't exist for me anymore. Normal had been smashed on the rocks beneath the bridge.” — Cat Clarke Normal Copy Share Image
“Her brain is like a filing cabinet – everything neatly stored in categories. My brain is more like soup – everything all… — Cat Clarke Funny Copy Share Image
“Your brother is hilarious! And possibly gayEntangled by Cat Clarke” — Cat Clarke Brother Copy Share Image
“You don't deserve Jack. You don't deserve to sleep. You don't deserve to live.” — Cat Clarke Hatred Copy Share Image
“Mothers can be so dense. Just act like you approve of what we're doing. We'll soon do the exact opposite, just to… — Cat Clarke Parenting Copy Share Image
“You have to understand that not everything in the world is black and white.” — Cat Clarke Black and white Copy Share Image
“I hugged my knees to my chest, desperately trying to hold myself together so I didn’t splinter into a thousand pieces. If… — Cat Clarke Hugged Copy Share Image
“You feel like tiptoeing on the morning after a big argument. You're not quite sure if you're going to launch right back… — Cat Clarke Morning Copy Share Image
“I never lost the certainty that he was the perfect boy. The perfect boy for me anyway. I just tried not to… — Cat Clarke Friendship Copy Share Image
“I remember. All of it. And it hurts. More than I'd ever thought possible. I know where I am and what I've… — Cat Clarke Failure Copy Share Image
“It's when I'm alone that the doubt sets in. It's been that way for years. As long as there are people around,… — Cat Clarke Doubt Copy Share Image
“This is the real way a friendship ends. Not with some huge screaming row, but with a gradual withdrawal. You’d think it… — Cat Clarke Friend Copy Share Image
“You know what they say: "Your school years are the best years of your life." To which I say, "If that's true,… — Cat Clarke Life Copy Share Image
“I called no one, and no one called me. I was suffocating with loneliness. The pain was almost physical. I felt like… — Cat Clarke Loneliness Copy Share Image
