When I eat, I'll immedietaly stick two fingeers down my…
“When I eat, I'll immedietaly stick two fingeers down my throat and throw it back up. Its automatic and I am trying to stop but it's not working. It's like a reflex because I just zone out when I do it and don't realise what I have down until it's too late. I was bullied a bit and the called me fat and ugly, so when I'm sick I feel like I'm throwing up the fat and ugly out of my body. It feels as if I'm throwing up the flaws and all the bad things on/in my body. Which I know I'm not. Im just stupid. But I cant stop. And Ill randomly start eating like ****, anything there, ill eat it but after the food rampage ill just fel guilty and ashamed and start making myself throw it back up again…..I KNOW THIS IS SOMEONE ELSE'S QUOTE BUT ITS EXACTLY WHAT I DO AND HOW I FEEL…”
About This Quote
This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation.
The speaker describes compulsive binge‑eating and purging as an automatic, trauma‑linked reflex, feeling trapped in a cycle of guilt and shame.
In simple terms: Compulsive eating and purging driven by past bullying.
Key Takeaway
Seek professional help.
Themes
trauma
eating disorder
guilt
self‑image
Mood
distressed
urgent
Type
personal
health
When to use this quote
- therapy
- support groups
- mindful eating
- self‑compassion
Key Concepts
psychology
coping mechanisms
Questions to Reflect On
- What triggers the binge?
- How can you break the reflex?
A Different Perspective
Recovery is difficult without support.