Apropos of nothing at all except that it has been on my…
““Apropos of nothing at all except that it has been on my mind and I think I had better say it because it accounts for a good deal of my behaviour. There is a strong streak in me that wishes not to exist and really does not believe that I do, so that I tend to become unnerved when these curious ideas are proved to be not really true because someone (in this case you) has responded to something I have said or done just as if I were an actual person the same as you (especially) or anyone else. Some of it is, I guess, just the worst sorts of arrogance and irresponsibility , but not all of it, as I really don't think I exist a lot of the time, so I'm asking you to bear with it, me, whatever, for the sake of what?—friendship I suppose, which I want to be capable of, which is obviously not enough. More brains might help, but enough unseemly remarks for eight o'clock in the morning and the shivering in pyjama bottoms syndrome.””
About This Quote
This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation.
The speaker feels detached from self, questioning existence, and struggles with anxiety when ideas are challenged, seeking friendship despite feeling unreal.
In simple terms: Feels unreal, seeks friendship.
Key Takeaway
Ground yourself in present reality.
Themes
existential doubt
anxiety
friendship
Mood
conflicted
introspective
Type
philosophical
personal
When to use this quote
- Therapy
- philosophical discussions
- creative writing
Key Concepts
self‑identity
mental health
social connection
Questions to Reflect On
- What grounds your sense of self?
- How can you balance introspection with social interaction?
A Different Perspective
May over‑intellectualize emotional distress.