“~I made the some big mistakes trying to get your attention. I'M SORRY I cant take it back no matter how bad I want to I'm ashamed of my choices. you can be mad and hate me but If I deserve that Dad , so do you. what you do makes me cry but I honesly cant deny that in my heart I truly love you You'll always be my only dad. You havent quite been the father t've need and you havent always told me what I want to hear you've never made it to anything i've done except the horse shows that you began. I just want to see you every day, I just want to hear your voice every morning. I dont think you understand that what you've done has torn me apart. so for now on I'll just sit here and wait. for the day that you GROW up and realize that you've hurt not only me but everyone around me. You've tried to buy my love for so very long I let you. but now that I'm older I understand more and I cant accept that. I cannot turn to you for what I need. I dont know if you'd ever give it to me. I just want to know have you ever really cared. you had me, you left me, you never cared I was your second child and still werent prepared. on the lonely nights when I was sad. you were the one who made me feel bad. you were never there to wipe my tears; you werent there for me throughtout the years. when I was lonely you werent there I guess thats because you did care. I could never forgive you for what u did. because sometimes I wish I was dead. without a mother I was lost and cpnfused, it parenting were a contest you would lose. call me or write me you never did how could you do that to your own daughter. you had me, you left me you never cared and you are the reason that I was scared. all those days that i've been upset will soon become your biggest regret. you never even called just to say hi you never even called just to say goodbye. Years and years past and still no word. the words I love you I never heard. when I was sick you didnt comfort me when I was hurt you didnt bandage me. I dont you to be a part of my life. No matter how many times you apologize. I'm just gonna pretend like you didnt even exist because you didnt even give me one last kiss. you had me, you left me, you never caed. my most important memories we never shared < 3”
