“When I'm gone, please carry on. its all over with, no tears. you never know what you got until its gone. for all the pain I caused to so many people. it wasnt worth a life to live. i love my family. you guys meant the world to me. cherish your time spent alive. i wish I wouldve known that. i wish I wouldve been a better person. for all my hopes and dreams are shattered and now I have to leave this world. live a better life then I did. all I ask is.. remember me when I'm gone”