“I go through periods when I feel confident and then I'm apt to be impulsive. But then I go through other times where I lose that confidence and I just feel like a total hypocrite. For a lot of my life I've had this feeling of something being wrong. It's hard to describe, but it's like having a sense of dread from the moment I get up to the moment I go to bed. There's this constant feeling that an accident is about to happen, or that I've done something bad that someone is going to find out.”
