“Im 183 days, over half a year, cleam of sh. But, if I'm being honest, I'm done. Im tired of being clean and healthy. I want to cut, & deep, until I never stop bleeding. I dont care how many days ive gone without it, I want to see how many days I can go WITH it. I know where my last blade is, I could get it, its right next to where I sleep, hidden from everyone except me. It would be a pleasant welcome back. I miss CAT more than anything... mayb just one cut wouldnt hurt mayb...”