“I remember the day we first met... My god I thought you were so beautiful. I didnt even know your name. I saw you across the room sitting by yourself, & I thought, hey I wonder what that boys name is. Turned out my friend knew you, & all the rest of my friends wanted to meet you. Who knew that in that instant my entire life would change? We started to talk, I fell in love the moment our eyes met. Turned out your the perfect guy. The perfect kind for me. You were socially awkward, quiet, shy, timid, inoscent, caring, thoughtful, & a hell of alotof anxiety. You didnt judge me for a second, you loved me too. But, somewhere along the way, everything changed. You started to judge me. You didnt love me. I swear we switched place. Now I'm the one with terrible anxiety, now I'm the one who is shy & timid, with few friends. But, now your the one with tons of friends, you dont have anxiety anymore, your happy, your comfortable with yourself & have no problem talking to girls. I have myself to thank for changing your beautiful soul. IF were being honest though, I'm glad I took this pain away for you, b/c I'd rather have it than you. Id rather me the one dying each day than you. If your happy then I'm perfectly OK with being chronically depressed & suicidal. What you dont understand is, I would LITERATELY take a bullet for you. I just wish I still had you... but its a little to late to tell you that I miss you & each day I want you a little more. Its not even that I lost my love its that I lost my bestfried, the only one who gave a damn, the only one I stayed for... finally gave me a reason to leave. Ik people dont get together for eternity when one goes to hell and the other goes to heaven, so I wish you well my friend. We were the perfect story a girl of hell falls in love with a boy of heaven & a boy of heaven falls in love with a girl of hell...”
