“I'm tired of being second. I want someone who will put me first. I dont want to be a back up plan. I want to know I'm not like a relapse person you can have bcuz you were refused by your first pick. I want to be love completely. not half heartedly or falsely. I want to be wanted not rejected at a moments notice. I need to be loved, to be first for at least ONE person. why do I say yes when I no you will only hurt me? why do I love you so much to chance being completely and brutally torn apart?”
