“I began to cry but maintained my shouting through it, like a wind through sheets of rain.” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“No order, no pattern, just chaos. Lots of little universes separated by invisible screens . . .” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“She was limp and pathetic and woozy and I loved her, I realised, even more because I knew how completely it was… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“Well, then, what's the plan now? You can't stay here forever.' My plan was indeed to stay there forever.” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“She came back to me at 10.01 the next morning, a mirror time, as I'd expected.” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“I had shelved expectations of another kiss; the intensity of not kissing now worked almost as well—the proximity and denial.” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“When she did walk, to the bathroom between the chairs and the customers leaning back in them, oblivious to her manoeuvres, the… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“It's hard to explain how an infatuation actually starts. It's a state so all-encompassing that it's almost impossible to remember how it… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“In the last week I felt her withdrawing. What was once everywhere, an ocean I imagined myself to be drowning in, was… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“Though I did not know her exact address, that she appeared to live almost within breathing distance of Robin, and that I… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“The situation got worse when they came back to her apartment after and someone put on music. An advert interrupted during a… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“Or maybe it was already too late; you only get one first love. She was mine, but I had not been hers.… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“He told me things about himself that should have made him sound urbane but did the opposite. He told me, for example,… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“I was worried that if I told her the story, she would identify with it too much. That her sympathy, however well-meaning,… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“Mizuko wonders if the GPS is still monitoring their progress. She has the distinct feeling of being watched by something in the… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“The street had that sad summertime feeling that you want to push on to see why it hurts.” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“Maybe, as Mizuko said, we won't even really die, just carry on in the feedback loop we are stuck in. Instead of… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“The whole time I hadn't slept with anyone at university had made it harder and harder to finally do it. Like spending… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“And yet how treacherous, I thought, after such neutrality, bordering on indifference, and occaisonally open hostility, when the whole city finally seemed… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“So there was no explicit bonding. Certainly not the kind you might be expecting if you like films like The Parent Trap… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“Some people in the town did not seem to care about the festival and were watching football on TV. The players were… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“There was never one truth. Even the Higgs could still be used to prove opposing theories, its mass falling between them on… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“Have you ever truly, keenly felt like you don't know who you are? Do you ever do something and think, Who is… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“To me, it was clear proof of the existence of supersymmetry, the idea that every particle has a partner. She was mine.” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“She was convinced a word existed, a noun, that meant the loss of feelings for someone who was formerly loved—a word for… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“It was to do with the glazed look that always comes over me when faced with somebody who has offended or hurt me and… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“I was on the sidewalk, buffering, wondering if it was okay to follow people in real life.” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“That night I dreamt about the roses laid at the wrong feet—the feet of the nurse. Each bit of the dream was like a… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“I saw a doctor. I went in case there were any remnants of the summer inside me—sticky, slender fish bones that needed to be… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“I felt the nauseous shiver in my stomach—everything from rage to empathy to morning sickness—that I had grown used to and now thought of… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“A neon-pink 3 flickered and instantly disappeared again into the dark. The sight of it on my own device now made me sick. I… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“I felt my own self-sufficiency, my own Walden Pond, seeping out of me as if I'd sprung a leak. Self soaked into everything around… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“ Roses are like kamikaze love pilots. Roses are like suicide love bombers. ” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“Waking in the morning, I had to remember grief all over again. It was sunny, a white winter sun, and that made me sad.” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“But you'd hope anyone would feel sympathy if they actually saw someone face to face, pleading for a chance.” — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
“From watching Silvia, I'd learned that one of the worst things about being ill is that most people find your suffering opaque. With this… — Olivia Sudjic Copy Share Image
